Saturday, July 12, 2008


I know the bible says to "not be unequally yolked" and whether or not it is right to date someone while you are trying to witness to them is not the answer I am looking for. Isnt the important thing that I am trying to save the person in the first place? No matter the amount of time or how the situation looks I do not believe anything gives me a right to give up on a person. Today my parents kicked me out of the house because my boyfriend is not a Christian. However, I tried to explain to them that I was working on witnessing to him and he was showing progress. My father (who is a pastor) did not want to hear of it. He said that I should leave the "loser" alone and that he is not going to be saved. That I should give up. I might be wrong, but isnt that completely going against what God teaches? He doesn't say to witness to someone for a period of time then give up...he says to plant the seed and pray about it. Faith is nothing without how am I supposed to believe I will save him if I don't work at it? I'm not trying to justify what I did or prove my dad wrong, but it makes no sense to me.

Monday, July 7, 2008

Getting out of here

I have always wanted to travel. For some reason it has always interested me, and it might have to do with the fact I HATE Mission Viejo. On August first I am leaving for 2 weeks to go to Honduras. I have never been on a plane or really gone anywhere. Now that it is actually happening, that I am starting my dream to travel I am so nervous. Also, I am not just going there for vacation where my worries go away. I am expected to help hundreds of kids. Some already know Christ and some don't. Regardless of there faith, I have expectations of me that I am not sure if I can reach. I am so excited and so nervous at the same time that I am not sure what to feel anymore. My team that is going up there with me are absolutely amazing people. I met the rest of our team last night and I love them! Please keep me and my team in your thoughts and prayers as we begin to embark on this journey.

Sunday, July 6, 2008


People go there whole lives with their "best friends" and people they count on for everything. I have a question for you... what do the people do who do not have many friends? Are they left to count on no one? Are they just doomed to face all their problems and struggles alone? Coming from personal experience, I can speak from that side of the fence. I do not have many friends (especially girls) and I find people constantly walking in and out of my life. I am finding myself being the outcast most of the time and being glared at and left out. Sure, sometimes it gets too much to handle, sometimes I get discouraged, but I have come to realize that having a group of people you can count on is not something one needs, it is a very large want. As I have watched faces blur by my life, there are a few I have found to stay by my side. You do not need a large amount of people to come over and cry with you when you have had a bad day. Some times all it takes is one. One person to lend a listening ear and have some concern for your thoughts and feelings. I need to accept the fact that I am not the kind of person to have groups of people call me every weekend to hang out, that I have a few close friends that I would give my life for, and for me, that is finally enough.